The question "this is what I want to do" is time dependent. Meaning that the answer changes depending on the time frame we're asking it about.
What I want to do right now differs a lot from what I want to do over this month, over a week, or maybe what I want to do in life. Answers to all these questions are completely different for an individual. So which answer are you really looking for?
If we decide to choose one particular answer — are we losing control, or gaining it?